And now I find myself 3 weeks later. I told ben i didnt like him and so he wrote me a big paragraph of how bad of a person i am. I was so mad. All my friends hate him. I dont hate him. Now sitting here 3 weeks later I realize I had feelings for him. And these feelings make me sad. I want to kiss him. And cuddle him. Because he is sensitive, and emotional, and pure and smart and his mind is...
This guy Ben likes me. And I dont know if I like him. He is 2 years older than me. He does shrooms and acid and pills and shit all the time. He has the best weed in the world. He is really nice. He is caring and honestly probably one of the nicest guys ive ever met. There are some problems. His mine is more complex than mine and I dont agree with some of his ideas. I would really like to kiss him....
last night i had a dream that i liked roger again. i miss those times. he was a great guy.
fabian knows that i burn myself. he called me crazy. he said my mind was twisted as fuck. i still cant help but like him so much. i saw him at a party last night and i was so attracted to him. i want to cry. i also just want to forget about him.
so turns out fabian may have never even liked me. i confronted him last night and the conversation ended with him basically saying we shouldnt date or hangout because he doesnt want to. he then texted my friend madeline saying he didnt want to do to me what he did the andrea this summer, which was pretending he liked her for hookups. i am beyond hurt.
want to know what happened to me yesterday? i went to a party and the guy i liked was there and wouldnt even talk/look at me. it hurt a lot.
I looked and looked at her, and I knew, as clearly as I know that I will die,...– Vladimir Nabokov, Lolita (via coldflowers)
i kissed fabian last night. i am happy.
I know it’s over And it never really began But in my heart it was so real– Morrissey (via 700seas)
i told fabian i had feelings for him tonight. he doesnt like me. why am i not even surprised? oh yeah because nobody could ever love me as this incident proves. i am very upset and i feel absolutely worthless.